The Purpose in Life

Do you ever wake up in the mornings thinking,

– “Here we go again” or “Another day”?

The older I get the tired I get with certain things. I realised being a child was easier, no responsibilities nor any worries. As soon as you walk into adulthood you realise how hard it is to actually cope with everything.

I remember when I was about 8 and I was thinking to myself how much I hated growing up, I didn’t want it. The older I got I noticed my friends wanted to grow and turn 18 as soon as possible so that they could move out and do their own thing. I was the complete opposite, I wanted to stay at my parents place as long as possible.

Of course I would occasionally feel frustrated with my parents and I too wanted to do my own thing (teenage years were the worst due to the hormones), but that happens with everyone. Being a teenager is part of growing up and it is normal to go through those emotions in life.

Being the kid that didn’t want to move out at anytime made me became the complete opposite when I turned 18. I wanted to grow outside of my comfort zone and decided to move out sooner than I expected. At the time, I was together with this boy and he ended up breaking my heart one too many times. After that experience, I wanted to change, I wanted to do something for me for once and no one else. So I decided to move to another country by myself, all the way to California. Why? Because I felt like that was my calling, my purpose in life.

When I moved I learned a lot, and when I mean a lot, I mean A LOT. America was completely to Sweden, the fact that I had to pay to wash my clothes was a big shock to me. The washing machine was in the same apartment complex, but I still had to pay to use it! In my eyes that was absurd! That is when I started to realise how good we had it in Sweden.

I had to start living independently in a foreign country. It was a big challenge for me because I was alone and I had no friends at the time but at the same time I felt like it was my purpose to do this, my mission, my path to take.

I wanted to grow as a person and to experience things by myself. I realised that life is full of surprises and that whatever you plan for, it is not set in stone.

My plan was to stay in the states for 10 years, or even forever after my graduation, but I met a man that changed everything I had planned for. I realised I had another purpose in life after I met him, that was to spend my life with him and to stay by his side.

He came unexpectedly into my life and that made me change everything. It was a risk but I thought if I don’t do this then I will regret this for the rest of my life. I did not want to live with that regret. I was happy before I met him but when I met him I felt like I was on cloud nine all the time, he made my life better just by his presence. If only he knew how much.

Life is full of surprises and you cannot control the obstacles in life, you have to face them and decide what to do with them. Nothing goes smooth in life, nothing will be served on a silver plater.

Your purpose in life will always change, shape, grow and make you fall. It will always be like that, on shuffle. One day you might even be stuck in a limbo and that is when you have to make the decision to change for the better, like you waking up thinking “Another day, here we go again.”

Perhaps you’re not living life the way you want to? Only you know the answer. Don’t punish yourself with these feelings, try to find that purpose and change.

It will be for the better, especially mentally.

– Siara




Honesty

Whenever you face something in life and think or have regrets…does that mean you’re being honest to yourself or to the person you’re with?

I have learned a lot these past few years. I’ve learned that life is short and that every person you meet in your daily life (aka strangers) won’t be around the next day. When I see someone standing at the bus stop or in my local grocery store I always smile automatically to them because I feel like it’s my duty to do so. If I see someone have the coolest outfit or something that I think looks amazing (make-up, hair, shoes etc.) I let that person know because I think that they deserve hearing that.

I have a little voice in my head, this voice reminds me when I see someone that I need to talk to this person and tell them how I feel. It’s weird I know but I feel like if I don’t tell them how I feel then they will never know. I like to be honest and I like to share my thoughts out loud. I mean sure, we shouldn’t be too honest at times because that could be considered as rude but you get my point.

If you’re being honest with people from the bottom of your heart (not just strangers) it opens up a new relationship. People end up being more comfortable with you and appreciate your honesty. Denying and telling people what they want to hear won’t last you long in terms of relationship. If a friend of mine is trying a dress that doesn’t look good on her body, I am not gonna tell her it looks good just because she wants to hear that herself. Of course I might hurt her feelings if she actually liked the dress but in the end I want her to know that I want the best for her and not just pretend to like what she likes just to satisfy her beliefs. Of course, I wouldn’t go so far to say or tell certain things to a friend because I knew it would hurt them, there is a limit of course. I am a very straightforward person but I do also care about peoples feelings (I am not a robot after all)

It’s important to be honest with people because if you’re not, how are they gonna trust you? Being “fake” nowadays seems normal and it’s sad to see that among friends.

You can define fake however you want, that word can mean so many things nowadays so I am just gonna leave it for your imagination.

– Siara