I’ve lost count on how many times I’ve tried to be “perfect”, how many times I’ve wanted to show how strong and powerful I am as a person, but the truth is, I am really not like that.
I know nobody is perfect in this world yet I keep wanting to show that I am more than just that. It’s just part of my personality. I don’t like to show my flaws, my weaknesses it makes me look a bit pathetic but I am human too, I can have flaws, right? I compare myself to other people, which is wrong, you’re not suppose to do that, yet I can’t help it. I am not saying my personality is made up or anything, I am who I am but I may not show everything on the surface because it’s something I’d rather not do. I’ve done a lot of things in life that a lot of people would never dare to do yet I keep calling myself weak. Maybe because I expect myself to be more than that? Who knows.
Why am I venting this? Good question, I don’t know. This is my place to think out loud after all so I just went ahead and wrote it all down.