It’s not About the Money

There are so many people that I’ve met in my life that have complained about their jobs and how unhappy they are with their situation.

I understand that it can be hard to find something you love to do and the struggle of finding something interesting to study. What I don’t understand is that people who has a job, complains that they don’t like their job. I am not saying it’s wrong to vent out about your situation but if you really are unhappy then why the hell are you working at that place?? People might not admit this but the real reason behind this is because it’s scary and it might lead to discomfort when quitting your job.

When I mention the word scary, I don’t mean it like it’s spooky, I mean it like the world out there is scary and leaving your job might get you into a situation you might not like. Getting into a situation that you’re not familiar with might make you a bit worried, it could be that you won’t find a new job anytime soon and you have to keep spending your savings (if you even have any). Perhaps you find another job that doesn’t give you the same wage (that is mostly the case if you change your roll). All of these things might leads to discomfort. But if you don’t make any changes, how are you gonna move on? How are you gonna grow and be happy? Is money really everything? People got it all wrong. Even if you earn a lot of money but you’re doing something you hate 40 hours a week, 160 hours a month, then what’s the point? This is what I hate with the society.

Someone I know is studying to become a doctor so I asked her one day why she wanted to be a doctor and her answer was: “Duh because of the money” I seriously got speechless when she said that (and then I scolded her afterwards for saying that)

I would NEVER want to be treated by someone who is a doctor due to the wage, what kind of bull is that? That makes me uncomfortable. It makes me feel like the person don’t want to help me at all. This is a major problem, people are getting the wrong idea. Becoming a doctor is about helping people not stealing money from them. Sigh, we’re living in a sad world. This is only one example out of many but you get point where I am going with this.

I was at the hospital the other day (long story) and this nurse told me she was working overtime (not sure if she was complaining or not) and then I said – “It’s good that you love your job” she looked at me and chuckled, “Not really I am just doing it because the pay is really good” she laughed out loud when she said that. I then smiled awkwardly back and said “You should’ve probably not have said that right before poking that needle in me” she laughed out loud once again (she thought I was joking but I was not). Things like this makes me angry. I know there are people out there that don’t know what they want to do but they keep doing their same routine over and over again. I am not saying she should change her job but she could’ve at least kept it a bit professional rather than mentioning that she’s doing it for the money.

It’s not about the money, it’s about happiness.

– Siara

Stuck at home

I didn’t think I’d be stuck in bed this week. I feel like someone has punched my stomach 100 times in a row and I feeling the after effect of the result. I want to do things but I can’t, I feel so unproductive. Doing nothing sucks and I have no patience at all. It’s quite funny that I am reacting this way. People would normally love being stuck in bed, watching movies all day and just chill. I am quite the opposite, I want to go to work and be creative. Meh, no streaming too…boo.

Oh well, enjoy this awesome photo from Disneyland. Pineapple icecream…take me back.

– Siara

Gyros and climbing (well..sort of)


The other week was a nice sunny day and me and a lame person decided to enjoy the weather and just go on a lame adventure. I wanted to have Greek Gyros soooo bad so we ended up going there just to eat some. This stuff, is good stuff. My life would’ve been ruined if food was considered as a drug. I would’ve been struggling so bad : ( so I am happy that food isn’t bad for you c: unless it’s something super unhealthy and it reduces your life span by half…then again I would eat it anyways lol


So I ended up playing around at the park with these bars. I am so weak though but I tried my best to do one at least haha (I held on like there was no tomorrow :’ ( )


In the evening I decided to buy pizza lol so bad for you but I was craving for pizza so bad. I wish pizza was healthy and spinach was not…I don’t like spinach.

– Siara

Bought a “Penny Board”

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I am not sure if this was a good idea or not yet. I have fallen once but it was on a quite soft surface…what if I fall on a harder surface next time? What if.

There is one thing that I always wanted to learn and that was how to skate. I think skateboarding is the coolest thing ever. I’m so fascinated how people can ride them AND do tricks! I did own two skateboards when I was a kid but I was too scared to learn how to ride one properly (due to my clumsiness) so I just sat on it and rolled down a hill with it lol  Man I must’ve embarrassed the skateboard community by doing that.

FYI –> I looked up the definition of a Penny Board and saw that it’s not a type of a skateboard but just a brand name in Australia, so this kind of skateboard is just a short cruiser skateboard made in plastic with bigger wheels. So I ended up getting this kind of a skateboard rather than a regular.

So yeah,, it’s been like two weeks days since I got it and I am able to ride it very VERY slowly lol but I’m gonna practice until I am a more confident with the balancing. And yes, there are bunch of what if’s here and there but how am I suppose to live life if I keep thinking what if? That’s why I decided  to buy one. Butt away “What if” !

– Siara

Do I Miss Los Angeles?


A lot of people have asked me this question for the past year. Do you miss America? Do you miss Cali? LA? Whenever they do ask, a piece of my heart shatters. For those who don’t know, I used to live in Los Angeles for over 3 years. I have been in Sweden for about a year now. There were a lot of reasons for my move, if it weren’t for those reasons I would’ve stayed longer. I’m not gonna lie, I loved LA. The weather was amazing, the people were kind and my friends were the best. The distance was just too far away from Europe and it was too hard to maintain my relationships in Europe. I think about Santa Monica everyday, it’s crazy I know. I keep thinking about the same path I would walk everyday from school and my internship. I keep thinking about the evening walks I would take by the beach.


Do I miss Los Angeles? Yes, everyday.

– Siara

Unboxing the Canon EOS M10

 I finally did a unboxing video! It’s been a while since I did one (PS4 unboxing) and I had been planning to get a new camera for a while now so I decided to try the Canon EOS M10. I have another one coming up though : ) for now, enjoy this one and I hope it helps people who wants to have a closer look to the product.

(You need to click on the title to make the video appear)

– Siara

Reacting to The Legend of Zelda Breath of the Wild

I am a huge The Legend of Zelda fan and Nintendo announced a new Zelda title during the E3 Treehouse couple of days ago. Instead of watching it through on my own, I decided to do a reaction video of me watching it. I don’t want to reveal too much, instead I’m gonna post the video for anyone to see : )

(You need to click on the title to make the video appear)


– Siara

Sony Press Conference 2016


Wow, just wow.

So many beautiful games that are in development. To be honest, it sucks to watch them showcase new games and then read later that they’re in development and doesn’t have a release date yet. That means it’s going to take them 2-3 more years to complete it which sucks! I mean don’t get me wrong, I know that it takes time to design a game but all that hype and excitement has to wait for a few more years *sob*

Let’s talk about some titles that got me excited!


God of War – Release: In Development
Developers: Santa Monica Studios

Let’s talk about God of War. I have not touched any of the previous titles yet I got a bit curious about the game and I am thinking about trying it out when it’s out. The intro was a bit harsh with the whole forcing my kid to haunt bit. He seems like a tough father but I feel like inside, he has a kind heart. I saw a bit of that when he was trying to comfort his son when he killed the deer. His son looked so sad. He stopped himself from comforting him and I think it was because he wanted his son to be strong (which is weird but then again it’s a video game, how should I know). I am excited to see more of this title when it’s close to its launch.


Days Gone – Release: In Development
Developers: Bend Studio

Seemed cool. It has that The Last of Us kind of feeling to it. It’s a bit mysterious so I would like to know more about the character and about his past. Who is the chick? His lover I assume. The zombies in this game are intense. The way they’re swarming reminds me of the Left 4 Dead franchise. Pretty neat!


Horizon: Zero Dawn – Release: February 28, 2017
Developers: Guerrilla Games

I must say it’s nice to see a female lead character in a game. I’m so used to be playing games there I play as a male. I have nothing against it but it’s cool to see a badass chick beating butts! Whoop! And when she was taming that animal (I assume it was a bull or something close to it?) I felt like it was like the movie Avatar where they connect their hair to the pet tail/hair to tame it (please tell me I wasn’t the only one thinking that).


Resident Evil 7 – Release: January 24, 2017 VR exclusive
Developers: Capcom

…okay Capcom you blew me away. Sony was showing some VR stuff and I thought it was something else. It was a bit bloody and I was like eww no I am not playing this in VR. Then it started getting a bit mysterious and interesting. An empty house led to hallucinations (or was it real?) to weird clues from a video tape. It was very confusing at first. A lot of jump cuts from people to animals to creepy locations. Then the roman 7 popped up then a fade in with the rest of the words spelling Resident Evil 7. I was like WHAT. Why I was surprised was because Resident Evil nowadays doesn’t seem as scary as it used to be back in the days. Today it feels more like action rather than horror. This gave me a complete different image of the Resident Evil franchise and I Love IT! This is what I am talking about Capcom. The Demo is available to play right now on PSN!


PS VR – Release: October, 13, 2016 (USA) – $399 USD

I am not sure when this is going to get released in Europe. I assume the same month at least or even same day (let’s hope) the price is a bit too much in my opinion. To pay for a PS4 then also pay $399 USD dollars doesn’t sound good to me. I have to try it first to give a complete honest review though. If it really feels like the HTC Vive then perhaps it’s worth it. For now I hope that they don’t make the price sky high in Europe.


Detroit Become Human – Release: In Development 
Developers: Quantic Dream

First of all. Wow. The intro really made me fall into the story so bad. I wanted the little girl to survive no matter what. When she fell I was like no! But when they re-winded the story and started telling about the choices and clues in the game can affect the story line I was like YES! I love games like that. It pressures the player to make a choice and based on their choice another action might happen which makes it so tense and interesting. I was thinking of Heavy Rain when I was watching this preview and then I realized that it’s the same developers lol (fail) Thumbs up for Quantic Dream!


Death Stranding – Release: In Development
Developers: Kojima Production

Okay let’s just all take a moment and talk about Hideo Kojima entrance walk. It was  freaking awesome, he rocked that stage. I bet everyone was expecting something Silent Hill:ish due to the cancel of PT. I was watching with my mouth open wide. I was not expecting him to make a new game with a character design of Norman Reedus like in PT. Everyone was very excited there. I am very, very VERY excited about this title. I want to know more. This is Hideo Kojima’s first title since leaving Konami and I am sure he will deliver a nice product and many more after this one.


The Last Guardian – Release: October, 25, 2016
Developers: SIE Japan Studio & genDESIGN

The preview of this made me all emotional. That’s when I know a game is worth playing, Whenever I feel emotionally attached to the characters or  the story, that’s when I know that I am going to have a great game experience playing that particular title. Japanese talking too! So good. I will definitely give this a go.


Crash Bandicoot – Release: 2017 TBA
Developers: Naughty Dog

Okay so, I am not gonna lie, my inner childhood is calling on me but seriously, why a remake? Why can’t they just make a new game? It’s been so many years Naughty Dog! Regardless, I am excited to play the three titles that they’re remaking so I am not gonna nag all the way.

Crash, Crash 2 and Crash Warped will be available for the PS4 in 2017 (TBA)

I hope you all enjoyed the show! I wish I could’ve been there myself like the pervious years. I was there when they first announced Final Fantasy 15 and when they mentioned Kingdom Hearts III (I almost cried, seriously) Speaking of Kingdom Hearts, I was expecting something this year but nada from Square Enix which was odd in my opinion.

Let me know what game you’re looking forward to play! 🙂

(Ps. to see more photos –> click on the title)


– Siara

Engagement Party


One of my friends from high school (six form) got engaged recently and decided to throw a party with his close ones. It’s insane how fast time has gone by. I remember years ago that we were sitting in this coffee shop having lunch and he mentioned this chick he started dating. I remember how he described her and how much he liked her back then. That was like 7 years ago! I ended up seeing some other high school friends there too that I hadn’t seen for over 5 years! It was nice catching up and talking about the good ol’ times. I ended up dancing for hours in my sky high heels and I couldn’t feel my feet after 7 hours haha. And no, I wouldn’t normally wear pants for a engagement party but I thought heck I am gonna do it anyways and I rocked that outfit. (ps. to see the rest of the photos you need to click on the title) I apologize for the bad quality photos, it was a bit dark.

I am so happy for the both of them and I hope that they live a happy and a healthy life. I am so looking forward to the wedding! Congratulations!

– Siara



I forgot how much people can troll on forums. I feel like I was an angel when I was active in forums back in the days compared to the persons I had to deal with today. I don’t really work at support but people we’re going overboard today there so I had to step in and do something about it.

I used to be apart of a bunch of forums over 13 years ago. It was mostly Michael Jackson forums (and occasionally the Swedish Nintendo website…until Nintendo closed all Nintendo websites except their own official one, booooo!) but I remember back then how it was. I felt like it was a playground. If you were a mod, you were highly respected by the other users and If you had made a lot of posts you were quite “popular”. Can you believe that? Having a status in forums? Ridiculous. Even bullying happened there too. I remember this one chick that was super rude and annoying, she was driving everyone nuts. Don’t understand why she didn’t get any warnings and getting banned. Memories. Due to those forums, I ended up getting to know new people all around the world and getting new friends. I still have contact with few of them today. It’s funny how an artist can bring people together. I’m grateful for Michael Jackson and that he was apart of my childhood. Even if I got bullied for it, for being a fan of his, I was still proud to say that I am a supporter of him.

– Siara